Drink the Water

Waking up this morning, my attitude SUCKS!! I need to wake up with a positive attitude, I know. One where I’m ready to take on the world. I do try. Really I do. Saturdays and Sundays are the worst for me, particularly if I have nothing scheduled. I read on some internet site that drinking water at night will help me wake up in a better mood. Water cures everything, you know. Waking up with this bad attitude should be easy to fix….but unfortunately, it will have to wait until tomorrow. For now, I’m lying here in my bed wondering why things have to be so difficult. I lie here thinking of all the ways my life would be better. I turn on the TV to try and redirect my thoughts. And, of course, it’s the news. I do watch the news in spite of the fact that it actually makes my attitude worse. Between the Fake News and the Faux News, I feel like covering my head and going back to sleep. But instead, I change the channel to my happy place. HGTV. It will be a marathon day of Fixer Upper. I’ve seen this episode at least twice. It’s a good one though. After an hour, it’s another episode that I’ve also already seen. HGTV definitely helps my attitude, but not enough to get me out of this funk. Watching already viewed episodes are not as entertaining as I would prefer. That doesn’t stop me though. I keep watching because it occupies my mind and I'm not focusing on how bad my life is.

Of course, during commercials, I surf the internet as well as check in on Facebook and Twitter. I find a story online about someone who truly has struggles. Not struggles like mine. Mine are all internal. Real physical struggles. I’m not dismissing internal struggles. AT. ALL. They are real and maybe just as difficult to overcome as physical struggles. But I’m sure someone dreams of having my problems. And this story brings my life back into perspective. Now I feel bad for feeling sorry for myself. Why can’t I wake up first thing in the morning with the realization that God has never forsaken me? Even in bad times, He always keeps me safe. Why can’t I be more selfless instead of selfish? In spite of my bad attitude, I know that God’s love is always with me, giving me strength. Sometimes I falter. Sometimes I fail. But I always find a way to keep going. I do get tired. Mostly on these non-eventful mornings when I can’t stop focusing on myself. Am I the only person with these problems? I doubt it. In fact, I’d bet a paycheck that every human has days of self-doubt and/or selfishness.

Earlier this week while visiting my chiropractor, we had a short discussion on religion. He studies all religions. It’s his THING…outside of his “day job.” Anyway, he tells me of one religion/belief system where they focus on other people. I can’t remember which religion it was. It sounds much like Christianity, but it wasn’t. It really doesn’t matter. The gist of the religion is important and powerful. He said their focus for attaining internal happiness and contentment comes from making sure everyone around you is good. WOW! So simple. A belief I need to adopt as my own. After this short conversation, I was positive I would never be the same again. I felt I was truly and genuinely a changed person. But then….Saturday came….and my selfish thoughts returned. UGH!! Why isn’t this easier? Oh, yes, I forget. Life isn’t easy. Redirect these negative thoughts. I WILL DO BETTER. I will attempt to make sure others are good. Bad days will come for sure. And I will probably fail on most days. But I know that God never fails to take care of me. In return I need to at least make an effort to take care of others. So if I’m given a tomorrow, I’ll be working on this.

But first, tonight I’ll drink a glass of water for a better tomorrow. Or at least I’ll try.