Piece of the Pie

So I read my horoscope today. This isn’t any kind of revelation. It's somewhat of a regular occurrence. On random days throughout the year, I read my horoscope with hopeful inspiration and insight. After reading today, I found out my “sign”, beginning today, is in Pluto Retrograde. Score!! This means “The FORCE is with me.” I know this is silly and I should be able to find my inspiration intrinsically and through prayer to my God, however, sometimes I find hope and a PUSH from the supernatural and a planet that is no longer a planet. Don’t judge me. Sometimes God shows up in mysterious places.

I’m pretty sure I’m not the only human who feels lost at times and begins looking for guidance in the strangest of places. In my head and in my own reality, I truly believe that we, as humans are more alike even than different. And as much as I’ve resisted this PUSH from GOD, I am finally here spewing my thoughts, fears, and perspectives. Yes, this is a huge fear of mine. Putting your true self out on the internet for all to see and criticize is beyond horrifying for this (not so young) woman.

I don’t fashion myself as a writer, but I'm doing this anyway. I do fashion myself as a deeply simplistic person who loves to laugh. I have a jillion thoughts in my head constantly fighting to get out. When I should be serious, I find a funny moment and crack a joke. When I should be lighthearted, I can’t escape my deeply emotional thoughts and feelings. Yes, I know this is bass akwards and yes, that’s a word found in the URBAN dictionary, but I digress. My whole point in writing this blog is to highlight my inadequacies. I'm backwards. I know this, but I'm good with it. God has been pushing me to grow and give more of myself for several years and FINALLY the day has arrived. Who knew that Pluto would finally be my catalyst? But, as the saying goes, "better late than never." Right?

As a young girl, I always thought my purpose on Earth would be to make a difference in the world. I’m pretty sure everyone feels they have a big purpose. I'm pretty sure we all want to have the influence of a celebrity, but the reality is most of us don't. We do, however, make an impact in the world without even knowing it. It's called the Butterfly Effect.

My biggest regret is that I let fear hold me back for so many years. With age, comes wisdom and the only wisdom I have to share with you in my new adventure is to follow your heart. Don’t fight with God or your daily horoscope. Be brave and go into the world as your true and authentic self. Show your talents. We all have them. This may or may not be my talent but it’s definitely therapeutic. And God knows I need therapy.

Go forth and find your piece of peace.